"What might have saved [you as a child] from growing into the criminal you became […]?" --- 'Joan McMillan'

There are an infinite number of ways for a person to become lost; but, there is ever only one real reason. We become lost when we lost our ability to see where we are. So, no matter how we become lost, or how lost we become, we can always be found again by simply restoring our ability to "see". 

Unfortunately, our present culture is one in which our children are taught to follow blindly, hand in hand, the ideological fancies of our ignorant leaders. And when a child, or any person for that matter, for any reason "let's go" of the hand that leads them, either out of fear, doubt, or even just curiousity, they quickly become lost having lost their ability to "see" where they are in the world from never having needed to see where they are going.

Our children never learn to use the "eyes" they were born with. And this, more than anything else, is the reason why so many become so lost, like me.

So, what might have saved me? I'll tell you what DID save me. The light, from a single candle, held in the hand of a child who had not yet learned to ignore what she could plainly see with her own eyes; that I was only a man, forced to wear the costume of a monster. By her light, and through her eyes, I saw plainly for myself not only where I was in the maze, but why I was there as well. I saw myself and my surroundings for the first time clearly since I was a child as well. And I became found again.

I'm referring metaphorically to the epiphany that caused me to throw down the rock that I had meant to kill that same child with. I saw in that moment that I could not kill her. Because I WAS her, and she was me. This is the truth that I was taught to ignore as a child. And, it is the truth that could have saved me as a child, and DID save me, and her, on that day.

"La Minotauromachie" (1935) by Pablo Picasso

[J.D. July 6, 2015]