"How do you feel about death at this point? Do you fear it, welcome it, or simply don't care either way?" --- JDun

I don't fear it, not even subconsciously. I don't welcome it either, at least not in any sense that I "want to die" or anything like that. But, if someone put a gun in my face and told me to say my prayers, I'd probably just smile and try to say something witty, like, "Hello, my friend..." (a reference to death itself, not the person holding the gun). At least that's what I have done in dreams recently when I faced such death. Not that I dream of dying often, only sometimes (maybe two or three times that I can remember in the last year), and as you know (if you read this blog), I dream a lot. But, when I do dream of my own death it is always something that happens in stride, and is nothing I consider in the dream or in life to be out of the ordinary. In other words, I seem to understand death, even subconsciously, as just another part of life. I certainly do not see it as "punishment" for anything. in my view, it's more of an escape, if anything. Which is why I usually refer to my so-called "execution" (death sentence) as my "release day", because to me that's all it is.

[J.D. Aug. 30, 2018]