"Are there specific instances where you can see [how society had a hand in your murders] in your life?" --- K.B. of TN

Absolutely! So many, and obviously (to me at least) that for a long time I just assumed everyone could "see" them and only pretended not to. This gave me (in my past mind) "good reason" to blame society for everything I did. Everyone knows that criminals "blame society" for their crimes all the time. But even the overly dramatized "reasons" for this blame that the "villains" in our books and movies so adamantly rant about can barely begin to express the deeply infuriating reality of what it's like to "see" so plainly what nobody else seems to be able to. I could tell you, for instance, how I was sent to prison as a naive "pretty boy" to be raped, or how I was systematically "brainwashed" into believing that my natural sexual curiosity (as a young teen) was "psychotic" and "sick", or how even after I got out of prison and tried my best to "fit in" I was officially stigmatized and frequently ostracized due to state sanctioned discriminatory social practices. But, unless you were me, all of this and the hundreds of other "specific instances" would just sound like "excuses", which in fact in the end that's all they were. And now, as I watch our system once more invent its own "official" excuses for killing the "monster" that it created, I can only hang my head in confusion and wonder when the insanity will end.

[J.D. Dec. 5, 2016]